May 10
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Do You Know How Amazing You Are?
I learned lots this weekend. I love times like that…when life clicks for whatever reason…and I finally feel like I get it (well, whatever “it” is). Please humor me while I elaborate… 
You see, I grew up thinking that just about everyone was cooler than I was, that most people had more important things to do with their time than talk to me, that I really wasn’t funny when I tried to joke, and that most of my friends were much more attractive than I was. This translated in my brain to many years of self-talk that sounded much like this: “You just don’t have what they have. You can’t get away with that. She’s really funny; I wish I could be like her. So-and-so doesn’t have time to talk to you. She’s so pretty; I wish I could walk around with that kind of confidence…” and on and on and on…in fact, regarding how attractive I was, I remember looking back at pics from my high school and later college and early married years thinking, “I was so pretty back then.” HELLO SELF…wake up!!!!
Well, I have been working on my self-talk and trying to speak honestly with myself. I have a glorious husband who has also helped reinforce my positivity about myself by adding his own two cents about how he feels about me. This past weekend, we went on a date. We have been really careful with our funds lately, but this weekend he really felt like we should sit down and share a meal together. The restaurant was quiet–and while I don’t often share dating details publicly–he inquired why I act like my life is so hard. I listed a few amazing feats I have accomplished (helping create, bear, and teach six amazing children, learning to quilt, keeping our home tidy so it can be a place of peace, etc.) in order to prove my case that I can be (and am) tired often. Then, over our delicious salad, he shared this sentiment: “When I met you, I knew there was something special about you. I knew you could do all these things that you do. Do you know how amazing you are?”
His words hit me like a brick wall falling down on me. In that moment, he was like an angelic messenger sharing with me gently yet powerfully that I can do what I need to do in this life! I am good enough. I have a voice. I am humorous. People laugh with me at my jokes. And I am beautiful. I am finally realizing I am happy to be me, and learning to make friends with myself is one lesson I am grateful to finally be “getting.”
So, what about you? Do you know how amazing you are? I am learning…
